What has he done to me? He has such a strange effect on me. I lose all my inhibitions when I'm with him. Nothing matters except being with him. It is just him & I.
It is impossible for me to fully put in to words how he makes me feel. Last Friday was out out of this world. It may just have been the best night of my life.
I feel so truely priviledged. More than lucky. Being in his arms again. Feeling his warm lips move in harmony with mine. I get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about it. His hands exploring my body. His fingers dancing on my skin, creating tiny electric shocks that pulsated through my body.
It was different from the first time when we were together. It was soooooooooooo much better...more thrilling...more intimate. I lay his arms for hours. I lay my head on his chest & listened to his steady, peaceful heartbeat. It was beautiful. I didn't want to leave his warm embrace. He could have held me in his arms forever & it still wouldn't have been long enough.
He asked me if I loved him. He wanted the truth. I fought so hard to deny it, but he said that if I really loved him then I would tell him. My emotions overflowed & finally I uttered those three little words - "I love you". I have never said those words to a man before & I meant it. I love him with my whole heart. Although it scared me to say it out loud, now the truth is out there. I can't take it back & I wouldn't want to if I could.
Even though he has now said that he doesn't want a relationship with anyone at the moment, it doesn't change a thing. He can't take back the nights we have shared together. He can't take back what he said to me when we were alone. I won't ever forget. Non-one can ever erase my memories.
Everyone around me (My Best Friends, His Brother) don't understand why I am willing to keep on trusting him, why I keep giving him my heart. Only I know how he makes me feel. Yes, it hurts sometimes, but when we are together all the pain disappears. I am willing to wait for him to be ready for a relationship. I will wait for him for eternity. He is worth the wait. The Heart Wants What The Heart Wants!!! I LOVE HIM!!!
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